Lady Gaga reveals she suffered a 'psychotic break' after rape at 19 left her pregnant

The singer speaks of her ordeal in a new Apple TV+ documentary 'The Me You Can't See'

(FILES) In this file photo taken on September 24, 2018 Singer/actress Lady Gaga attends the premiere of "A star is born" at the Shrine Auditorium in Los Angeles. US singer Lady Gaga said in a documentary out Friday that she was raped by a music producer and became pregnant at age 19, an ordeal that eventually caused her to have a "total psychotic break." / AFP / VALERIE MACON
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Lady Gaga revealed she suffered a "psychotic break" after being raped and made pregnant by a producer at age 19 as she was trying to get a foothold in the music industry.

Gaga, now 35, gave details of the assault in an interview for the Apple TV+ documentary The Me You Can't See about mental health and the long term effects of trauma.

In this image provided by Apple, Lady Gaga appears in a scene from "The Me You Can't See." (Apple via AP)
Lady Gaga appears in a scene from 'The Me You Can't See.' AP

"I was working in the business, and a producer said to me, 'Take your clothes off.' And I said no. I left, and they told me they were going to burn all of my music. And they didn't stop. They didn't stop asking me, and I just froze and I … I don't even remember," said the singer, who first revealed the sexual assault in 2014.

"First, I felt full-on pain, then I went numb. I was sick for weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks after, and I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who raped me dropped me off, pregnant, on a corner," she said.

The Star is Born singer and actress said she suffered "a total psychotic break and for a couple of years I was not the same girl".

Gaga refused to name the person who raped her.

"I understand this #MeToo movement, I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not. I do not ever want to face that person ever again," she said.

In 2012, Gaga created the Born this Way Foundation for people struggling with mental health issues.

She said the process of healing was slow.

"Even if I have six brilliant months, all it takes is getting triggered once to feel bad," she said.